TODAY;
had oral presentation.
so damn nervous loh.
my hands were so icy cold.
also partly beacuse of the cold weather luh.
the intro part was alright.
just that the part where we began to play ju hua tai..
everybody was like out of tune lah.
oh well..
the scores are not those ochestra scores lah.
is individual de.
so it wouldnt really sound good.

fangkai's presentation also not bad.
didnt know he was like so humji?
LOL?

&& the weather nowadays are like so cold.
and due to the rain..
the parade square is wet.
then we do not need to go there for morning assembly.
meaning?
NO ATTIRE CHECKS!
these two days the teachers cant check.
no need to tuck in.
ahahs!
THIS COLD WEATHER IS SO LOVED BY ME!
xD

had a women's talk with annice lah.
there's one point i like about her.
i not lesbian luh.
she dont like to probe.
she thinks that..
'ok..if people dont want to tell.. then i dont probe lah.
if they want tell, they would eventually.'
yeah thats the point lah.
she gives people privacy.
and wouldnt probe.
yah..
thats all lah.



i think its very 辛苦 to have to keep on acting.
i detest that type of life.
i hate it.

i dont want to smile when i'm sad.
i dont want to act happy when i'm not.
i dont want to laugh along when i dont feel happy.
i dont want to smile when i see those things.
i just want to cry when i'm sad.
i just want to laugh when i'm happy.
I JUST WANT TO BE MYSELF.

but i just cant..
the surrounding forbid me to do so.

i have to smile when i'm sad.
i have to act happy when i'm not.
i have to laugh along even when i dont feel happy.
i have to smile when i see those things.
I CANT BE MYSELF.

sheesh..
i guess thats life..