HURRAYness.
my chinese term1 result is out.
i got 88.
top man(:
happy sehhs.
going to get report book on friday.
aniwae, amos got 1st.
i DUN WANT amos to get 1st lahhs.
arrghs.
BITCHER man.
lol.

recess quite fun bahhs.
should say is quite HAPPY.
lol.
put my ice tea on their plates.
and then he helped me throw.
hahhas.
lol.

it seems that we are trying to see who is the NONCHALENT champion.
and i think you will be the winner,
you are damn nonchalent.
now i shall try to be nonchalent too,
actually i dun feel like doing so.
my nonchalent-ness happens because there is NO TOPIC between us.
looked for him today.
i duno wad to talk to him.
so didnt talk at all.
he didnt even bother to look at me once.
or talk to me.
what the heck is this?
i dun expect you to look at me all the while or what.
all you have to do is dun treat me transparent.
treat me as an opaque object.
just treat me as your FRIEND.
is it so difficult for you?

DO NOT GIVE ME HOPE AND DISAPPOINT ME.
I CANT TAKE IT.
不要把我捧上天了, 又把我推下来.
我接受不了这种刺激!
please.
do not treat me this way.
if you see this. [ i know you wont de. ]
please.
if it is a lie.
then just say so.
if it is the truth.
say so too.
我要崩溃了!!

does the problem lies with me?
or you?
there is this something in my heart which i cant put down.
i keep thinking that you are lying.
even if you said that it was the truth.
i still did not believe you.
THIS IS MY FAULT.
but if you dun be so nonchalent,
i would believe you.
whose fault is it then?
I AM GOING CRAZY!