HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DAD&ME.

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY TOO, MUM.

like what my bro's msn nick says:

"i've never said it before, and i would never ever get the chance to say it to her."

thanks for everything,

everything which i dont know how to treasure.

i've always thought that there was going to be many birthdays and mothers' days,

so i didnt do much these 15 years.

i've already planned,

how much of my salary i was going to give you&dad when i start work.

how we would bring you to restaurant celebrate your birthday.

how you&dad can spent the next half of your life together in a new flat.

how you two could have relax everyday @ home, no need to do work.

i've wanted and decided to repay you everything when i grow up.

but, all was too late.

today's my 15th birthday,

the first birthday without you.

that is why, i dont feel like celebrating my birthday or go anywhere today.

i could still remember clearly,

few years ago, we had celebration and you cooked damn lots of good food.

but, i wont ever get to taste them anymore.

i wont know how it is like, to celebrate mothers' day with you.

sometimes, i mistook other people's voice for yours,

& thought that "ma is going to come upstairs already."

but on a second thought, i realised that was impossible.

...

mum,

i've only realised this, after i lost you, that,

you're really very important.

&ily.

i wish for the good health of my family & friends, especially, dad.