treasure what you have.

something happened to my mum.
wont be online these few days.
thanks for showing concern.
i'm prepared for the worst already.
dont worry, i will be strong.
every human have to pass through this stage.
just that i didnt expect that it would come so soon.

people, when was the last time you said thanks or sorry to your parents?
especially thanks.
i took my mum for granted.
threw tantrums at her these few weeks when she was sick.
i'm sorry.
do you know i had the urge to tell you thanks yesterday?
but i didnt.
i felt paiseh.
you scolded me for being rude yesterday too.
i wanted to say sorry too.
but, i didnt say out.
please, wake up.
i want to say them personally to you.

i'm sorry i had been so bad tempered.
sorry that i threw tantrums at you even though you were sick.
you asked me to help you buy things, i complained.
you nagged at me to stop playing the computer, i thought you were irritating.
but now,
i want you to scold me.
nag at me.
beat me.
just wake up.
i promise i'll really try my hardest to change my temper.
this promise, i will do it.

just wake up.
dont sleep already.
you havent seen my ic.
you havent seen the agk get fined.
you havent seen his shop close down.
you havent seen brother and i get married.
you havent taught me how to cook.
i havent bought you a birthday cake before.
i havent said thanks to you for ages.
we havent went to hongkong for holiday.

dont leave us.
你还有很多事还没有交代.
i just known you for fourteen years.
thats too short a time for me to know your good.
to learn how to treasure you.

i'm sorry.
please wake up.
you said you would be happy if you lived until 50 years old.
so why are you leaving now?
wake up, dont sleep.
the bed at home is the best, dont sleep at the hospital already..
wake up..