hmms.
sometimes i just wonder if i should just give up and quit the game.
it seems that me.
THIS SUBSTITUTION.
THIS RESERVE.
is so redundant.
i shouldnt have appeared.
no.
i SHOULDNT.
yesterday he said he not sure is how much.
what does it mean?
INCREASE?
or DECREASE?
if its decrease.
i think i might give up.
if its increase.
although it has a LOW POSSIBILITY.
i would feel bad.

seems that it could be decrease.
i sometimes feel like giving up.
but i had already promised to stay faithful.
be more 专一.
but..
sometimes i just feel like quitting.
i just feel so extra.
i seriously know that i am just a 'reserve'.
but i just blurblur de continue being my reserve.
WHY?!
blinded by love.
i suppose.
actually i know we would never be together.
cause he really love her loads.
but 我还是傻傻地在这里等待。
傻傻的。。
一直傻傻的。。
等到天荒地老。。
等到海枯石烂。。